I welcome you to my world
hi
hi
+ Over the mountains and the sea
And we'll never be royals
these days the nightmares of me killing myself keeps meeting me in my dreamsim slowly but surely gaining the wrong kind of courage.
2014 has already been bittersweet so far.
it's sunday today and i went down to work to tidy up my things.
I didnt have to, I just like to work when I am alone.
so i just went over, packed my stuff, decided to bring home some stuff.
on my way home, i texted my older sister telling her
i found her the fully lined chiffon skirt she was looking for
then she went on about my baby sister.
telling me how weary she seemed and she looked like she was going to cry.
and also that because there was no food at home, she went without any food to work
saying that she refuses to have fast food and that she wont have a break today
as a sister i feel so terrible.
i feel like asking her why is she working so hard for?
but at the very same time, i know the answer.
why is she working so hard while schooling?
she is only 17. turning 18.
she should be going out more, having fun, spending time with her friends.
but given a choice, i know she wouldnt anyway.
i hope i can work out something to ease her monetary goals.
i love you, and i couldnt hold back my tears just thinking about this.
dear baby sis, please don't grow up too fast.
i miss the little botak head you screaming at me when i try to take a closer look at your toys
what's the use of having a full time job (and pay) but not able to ease someone elses monetary needs?
someone that really needs a little bit more rest probably.
im beginning to question my priorities again.
be wise athirah, it's a brand new year.